waiting & learning

these past two weeks have been full of waiting.

it's a roller coaster really.

so much hope in not yet knowing. nose dives that absolutely take your breath away.

but i am learning.

as mother teresa said "...in the absence of clarity i have learned to trust."

there is no clarity today.  there might not ever be.
but there is trust. there is hope.

trust in my Creator
that makes no mistakes.
that goes before me and stands behind.
that loves all of my boys infinitely more than i ever will.

learning that if i wallow in fear and despair i will miss the joy that He has for me today. 

there is still so, so much joy.

we have another appointment friday morning. prayers for peace despite any news it might bring.